March and April

March 2012 is when I had the laparscopic surgery done. We were told that with the significant amount of tissue that was removed we should try naturally for the next 2 months. After March was unsuccessful we still held high hopes for April, we were told I may need a month to bounce back.  This was a hard one though. April was another disappointment. This month I struggled hard core. My sister announced to me that she was expecting her second child and was excited for us to be pregnant at the same time. We planned way to much that this month was the month and when my period came my world came crashing down.  I was so sure that this was the month that I had not accepted the possibility that it may not work.  This is the month that changed my perspective. I became very pestimistic about future treatment and wanted to be finished with all future treatments.