With this new procedure we were again hopeful, however I kept my reservations. My husband was actually going to be in Panama when I found out if it worked and had a plan in my head of how I was going to share the information with him.
I didn't get to use the plan. I started my period 3 days early and had to break the news to him over the phone. It was really hard to not have him there to lean on and be alone as I know he felt the same way.
After this failed attempt I was done. I did not want to go through it again, scheduling appointments, missing work, relying on others, and the needles.
I have a great friend that I had talked to a few months prior about our back up plan. Adoption. I don't like to look at it as a Plan B or something we have to settle with, however, that is slightly how it was looking. My friend messaged many friends she knew that had adopted and asked them to share thier stories with me. This was GREAT. I was so encouraged and inspired. I felt that this was a road I could go down and be very happy with. I had emailed a couple of contacts that they had given me and had a pretty firm plan B ready to go if we continued to be unsuccessful. After this months failure I made the call. I had them send paperwork, got financial information, and was ready to pursue.
Like I mentioned earlier my husband was in Panama. He was there with our church group helping with the orphanage's in that area. This trip really laid in on his heart the option of adoption. He fell in love with the children over there and knew he could love any child. This was a great break through for us both.
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